HURRY UP, 2009!
Skating towards a brand new year . . .
Today is Wednesday, December 31, 2008. New Year's Eve. Never in my life have I so anxiously awaited the coming of a new year.
For me, in the common vernacular, the majority of days from Thanksgiving 2007 up to this date sucked.
I can count on two hands the number of positive, edifying people and situations I experienced over the past 14 months.
The rest have been my personal variation of Hell.
Most of the negative I, sadly, am able to trace back to poor personal choices; very few were the direct result of happenstance.
Life lessons to be recognized, life lessons to be learned.
I'm not a person who puts much credence in either good luck or bad luck; I simply acknowledge that things happen. And yet, without hesitation, I will state that I believe they happen for a reason.
I'm not suggesting there is a great metaphysical purpose behind every action; I'm merely saying my personal belief is as follows: very little is random. Every choice we make, both the good and the bad, impacts on our daily lives. Cause and effect, if you will.
I will also state that, in a sub-atomic sized minority of cases, I believe random acts can take place; the "when bad things happen to good people" scenario.
So here I sit, typing these words and counting down the hours until 2009 appears.
And yet I ask myself the following question: if I believe that very little is random, if I believe that every choice we make impacts our lives, then why am I so anxiously looking ahead to a new year, the common representation of a fresh start? Why am I not beginning from this moment on to put all the negative people and situations behind me?
Because I am human. Because I need the classic symbol of a new beginning. Because for all my intellectualizing, I still want to believe in symbols and miracles.
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